HATE AND FICTION

Well, the past three years have certainly been an eye opener. I have learned how two obsessed strangers will use whatever means are at their disposal to destroy a total stranger completely and totally for no reason at all other than to satisfy some imaginary quest that only they know within their delusional minds.

Now I sit here wondering what the hell I did to deserve to gain the attention of these two women? The answer is absolutely nothing. Zip, nada, zero.

For the first 56 years of my life I was like hundreds of millions out there. I lived, worked, had good times and bad, unnoticed and certainly not investigated, hounded, stalked and in the end ground into the ground by total strangers that I have never met, do not want to meet and certainly am likely not to meet.

BOTH of these women have repeately expressed their HATE for me. BOTH had repeately wished me DEAD.

Now what is it that caused these women to build up such an intense hate and wish for death of someone that they have never had personal contact with?

Their purported reasons, sadly delusional, can be traced down to one singular event. I, being a male, made the mistake of caring enough about the plight of missing children in my area that I started following the internet blogs and forums about the case. I started reading and then posting on what was then InSession, and then the Topix threads, Websleuths and then on to a multitude of other internet sites that had cropped up over the years dedicated to children who have been the victims of violent crimes committed against them, not by strangers, but by those who brought them into the world and with whom they were totally dependent to survive.

The one case that started what would soon be the most life changing series of events was the disappearance of Trenton Duckett. On August 27, 2006 Trenton Duckett was reported missing by a guest of his divorced mother Melinda Eubank Duckett.

Now, unfortunately, this event was not that unusual. It had been and continues to be an almost every day event. At least one child will go missing for one reason or another each and every day somewhere in the United States alone. I would not be surprised if I have understated that statistic. What caused me to pay attention to this incident was a strange coincidence.

It was six years ago to the day that my wife and I had buried our only child, our son,  John. We were in the small town of Mount Dora, Florida doing what we had for the past 5 years around that time. We would to to the red lighthouse at Grantham part and release three balloons as the sun set over the lake. One red, one yellow and one blue. Each balloon was each of our favorite colors. The balloons represented our souls flying to the heavens together someday to be together for eternity.

When we returned home, two hours later and turned on the television, my wife and I first learned of Trenton as the local news reported the first details of the efforts to find him.

Over the next week or so I started paying more and more attention to his story, tuning into the news and soon into such shows as Nancy Grace as the story began to attract the attention of the national media and the true crime community on the internet.

I soon began to read, and then post on the various forums that were on the internet. My interest grew to the point where I gradually became more proactive. The first step was to create a photobucket account and visit the points of interest in the nearby city of Leesburg, Florida and post photos there and on the various websites that had the ability to display them.

Now at this point, I should probably explain what motivated me to get this involved in the case of a child who disappeared in a town 20 miles away from my home.

The answer has to do with the passing of our only son. A parent who outlives their child is a bitter experience that never goes away. I have witnessed the suffering of my wife over the loss of her creation over the years and I also had my own emptiness that is still within me today as I sit here, alone in this house that will soon no longer be mine.

My wife and I would watch the family of Trenton appeal day in and day out, appeal for anyone who had information on Trenton to contact them or Law enforcement. Like thousands of others I posted on the internet whenever I could with the others who were growing more concerned as the hours and days passed by with no answer as to what happened to him.

When my work took me to places of interest regarding the story of Trenton, I took pictures of them. Like many others on the forums, I took part in discussions and shared theories.

At some point my activities had increased to the point where I became more proactive. Along with several others, I wrote what would become known as the caretaker letter. There were about a dozen of these “please bring Trenton back” letters written by concerned “arm chair” detectives hoping to reach whoever might be harboring Trenton and persuade that person or persons to return him to his family or otherwise bring them closure.

It turned out the be the biggest mistake of my life. I have to admit that I could have used better judgment when writing the thing and should have received input from the family, but hindsight is 20/20. People make mistakes and I made a big one. I did not hide from the mistake, however. I admitted that mistake and am paying for it to this day.

I should have backed off trying to help at that point and moved on. Unfortunately I do not give up easily and wanted desperately for Trenton to be found. I was in a unique position to be able to post a large billboard or banner at a small used car dearlership I owned in Ocala Florida where reports of Trenton’s sighting  were circulating. The unused billboard was visible on the busy highway that passed it by thousands of motorists every day. I felt it was worth a shot to put the sign up there. I attempted to work with members on line to gather the funds necessary to pay the banner maker the $2000.00 necessary to obtain the sign and place it on the billboard.

Unknown to me at the time was that those close to the family were working equally as hard AGAINST what I was doing. The reason was simple enough, it was me leading the effort and not the effort itself. Had I known who it was that was resisting my efforts I would have stopped immediately.

As it turned out, before the project even got off the ground, Kidfinders arrived in Leesburg with their unique trailer/billboard and I halted the project as the Kidfinder mobile billboard would be far more effective than a stationary banner.

As the days months and then a year passed, it became more obvious that it was going to be unlikely that Trenton was never going to be found. I also soon became aware that my presence on the forums were becoming less enjoyable and I soon went on with my life.

My departure would not last long. In June of 2008, it happened again. Caylee was to go missing. In mid July, her mother Casey,  was arrested. She would soon be charged with her murder. I resisted returning the the forums until sometime in August when the intensity of the story reached a point where I could resist no longer.

It turned out to be another big mistake. Many out there know what happened from that point on so there is no point rehashing everything except one singular event that seems to be the reason why Michelle Lynn McKee and Sandra Goddard keep stalking and lying almost three years later.

Sometime in late 2008 when I had started both my Ustream and Paltalk multimedia sites I started to get UNSOLICITED private messages over AOL chat and then PALTALK. It was obvious at the start that the authors of these messages were trolls intent on being pests.

In the beginning, I ignored the trolls, refusing to reply to them and blocking them when the message service allowed it. My efforts failed. The trolls simply created a new account and messaged me yet again.

The messages were always the same. Commit suicide live on webcam. Be a camwhore. Do it for the lulz. This went on for quite some time until finally I had enough. In one aol message session I engaged in a lengthy exchange on Aol messenger with the troll who idenified himself as Renzolovescake or KfcFan who were members of Anonymous and frequented a website known as 4chan.

I decided to try and fool the trolls into thinking they talked me into abiding by their wishes. I turned off my webcam on my live stream and mistakenly thought that I had turned off my mike. I was soon proven wrong. I made one last post “Fine, I have had enough” and quit messaging them. For the next few minutes, they would message me and I would not answer. As the messages came over the computer it became apparent that they were convinced that I had granted their wish. It was around that time that my phone started ringing.

Since I had received a death threat the week before, I knew that anonymous had my telephone number so I refused to answer it. The calls continued over and over for quite a while. What I did not know is that shortly after I had stopped posting, I had reached for something on my desk and a glass had fallen on the floor. The noise was picked up by my mike that had NOT been turned off as I had originally thought. Since my monitor of my streaming pc had gone into screen save mode, I did not see the commotion going on in my chat room.

I had two pc’s operating on the internet at the same time. The pc that was not streaming was the one that I had connected to AOL and was the one where the pm sessions took place.  The other pc was on the internet streaming my broadcasts.

It was soon thereafter that I looked up at my security monitor and saw a number of Lake County Sheriff cars parading down the road leading to my house with their blue beacons lighting up the night sky. I would then learn that someone had called them and reported that I had committed suicide and others had made a well being check request.

Once I was through with the sheriff and displayed the messages set to me by Anonymous, I went back into the chatroom and explained what happened.

Within a week or two  the messages started up again, this time on Paltalk. This time, under the advice of investigators who had now gotten involved, I began to document would turn out to be over a hundred attempt those of whom  I had assumed to be the Anonymous trolls to repeat their attempts to have me commit suicide on cam.

Bits and pieces of these repeated “PMS” as they soon became to be known soon contain rather disturbing references to molesting children namely Trenton Duckett, Caylee, the fathering of both children by the trolls writing me. The trolls going to malls to look for kids to molest and so on.  I became more concerned at these messages and soon contacted the investigators of both agencies and informed them of the messages I was getting. The attitude of the detectives was that these were pranks and told me not to be concerned with them.

At the exact same time these same Anonymous members were barging into my chat room and disrupting it. The administrators overseeing my chat were trying their best to deal with these pranksters, or at least that is what I thought.

It was around this time that I was made aware of  Sandra Goddard of Beaconhell.com and her stalking of me. I began to get messages, e-mails and videos regarding her dispute with individuals within her family as well as her problems with Websleuths.com and the families of missing people who were considered possible Jane does in the Princess Blue case in Texas.

It was also around this time that I learned about Joshua Wayne Melton better known as MonoxideMMAC and just how involved he was in what had been going on. I also began to learn that I had actually been stalked by this group going as far back as 2006.

From that point on, I would be the victim of all sorts of “pranks” most notable the daily “commit suicide” calls that continue to this day. Each and every day Renzo calls me and tells me to commit suicide and to do it for the lulz and on cam. He has yet to miss a day since November of 2008.

Then, for some unexplained reason, a series of PRIVATE PM’s started showing up on file sharing sites that would be traced directly back to Sandra Goddard’s Beaconhell.com website.

The PM’s soon found themselves in the possession of law enforcement and soon thereafter in the hands of Dominic, the dunce, Casey.

What was not known by the person or persons who were distributing this material, is that I had given the ORIGINAL copies of the messages from MY two pc’s to law enforcement the weekend the last of these messages was sent to me.

What Sandra Goddard of Beaconhell.com seems to have forgotten or NEGLECTED to report is that there was a SECOND “suicide” incident. This time a woman called the Lake County Sheriff’s Department, informed them she was my daughter or niece, that I had guns in my house, threatened her with violence and was going to commit suicide.

History repeated itself as the boys in green again paraded into my driveway their blue lights ablaze. Since Renzolovescake told me that call was going to be made, I was able to meet the deputies in my yard as they arrived and explain the situation to them. I then took the printouts from THAT pm session to the detectives two days later to have them examined.

So imagine their surprise when some time later, they received the PUBLISHED version of the PM’s that appeared on the internet that bore NO similarities to the copies I gave them. The forgeries were obvious and the one detective even accounted a similar experience she went through.

They told me to not worry about it and move on. Sandra Goddard and her trolls did just the opposite and to this day continue to publish this bogus material.

Now people have asked why I do not publish the original 23 or so messages to clear this up. The answer is quite simple. I did not archive all of them on my pc. I printed them out and gave them to the detectives who soon misplaced them.

The few that were archived rests on a hard drive somewhere in Denver in the possession of someone who was trying to research some of the spyware and keyloggers that were installed on it.

And so there it is. The main reason for my troubles today. The one thing I find curious is that BOTH Sandra Goddard and Michelle Lynn McKee swear the versions circulation are GENUINE.

The question that has to be asked is “How are they so certain?” Were they there when these messages created? Why did they not informed Detective Dominic Casey of WHO the other party was on the messages. Why did they NOT inform the EXACT circumstances behind these PRIVATE pm’s? Why has the other party NOT come forward with the PROOF of the authenticity?

The answer is quite obvious. Michelle Lynn McKee and Sandra Goddard know the PM’s are FAKE because they CREATED them. I dare them to prove otherwise.

Stay Tuned

MURT

3 Comments

  • anybody says:

    Its insane that they wont leave you alone Murt. ABSOLUTELY INSANE!

    • In a few days they will be beating a dead horse. The case is about at and and along with it my coverage of it. If all they keep doing is stalking me, they will be talking to themselves more then they are now as there will be nobody around to listen to them.

      The “pre Caylee” numbers on the true crime blogs, chats and forums were low and at the end of this case the numbers may even drop below those levels as there are more interesting things on the internet for people to participate in. And these things do not have the drama of the true crime blogs chats and forums.

      I do understand from talking to those in the industry that there may never be a repeat of the kind of coverage we have seen in this case by the mainstream internet sources due to the high cost to profit ratio they experienced during the coverage.

      MURT

  • utalkn2me says:

    I have to say I have followed the Casey Anthony from the very beginning. I have been to many many chats, blogs, articles etc and never in my entire life have I EVER run into so many hateful, vengeful, backstabbing people. It seems to have brought out the worst in people but I believe in some cases, a handful of those are like that in everyday life. The rest are nothing more than cowards that would never speak to others that way in person. The “handful” that like to get everyone stirred up are no doubt lazy slobs that wanna be somebody but will never achieve that status because they never learned any social skills. They need to get out and work real jobs like most of us do so they would be too tired to go about ruining the internet for everyone else. So for that reason, I will be glad when this particular trial is over.

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